Today's adventure consisted of a really long walk through the
woods behind Parque Ecuador with Simón. We spent the morning cooking and
cleaning. I organized his room and scrubbed the bathroom with a vengeance and
copious amounts of Clorox. Simón made breakfast, he's definitely the better
cook between the two of us. He actually had to teach me how to make rice the
other night because I had no idea how. I've always just followed the
instructions on the bag, but those instructions take 45-50 minutes and his rice
is done and perfect in 20, so I had to know the secret.
There's something relaxing, and certainly meditative about walking
in the woods. For me, I feel a sense of security. There's a kind of
understanding that is felt between two hikers crossing paths. A brief,
"Hello" or the fleeting moment of eye contact is charged with unsaid
trust and almost camaraderie. For the first time today, I encountered a wooded
trail that I was told was unsafe. Not because of natural dangers, like a
poisonous plant or threatening jaws or claws. I was told that the trail I
wanted to travel was dangerous because people
make it dangerous. There are
actually people who wait on those trails waiting to jump you for your valuable
phone, camera, or even bike. The idea is nauseating and saddening. For the
first time in the week that I've been here, I genuinely felt homesick. I longed
for the summer sun and long afternoons hiking Mansfield or pioneering new
trails with Prince. Home, where I don't even need to lock my car door, because
I know nobody is going to try to steal my things.
I have been reading Kite Runner, a novel by Khaled Hosseni. I'm
the type of person to mull over a vague piece of wisdom, the type that people
post to their Instagram or make their Facebook status when they're sad. I like
to think about those phrases and try to apply them to my life in some way. I
think most of us try to lead virtuous lives, we try to be good people, and we
try to keep the snake in the grass away from our shining personalities. In any
case, the passage that I was reading was discussing sin. One of the lead
characters was discussing his belief that stealing is the only sin, and the
greatest one at that. After some consideration, I agree wholeheartedly.
Stealing is stealing, sure, but I hadn't thought of it with the perspective
that Hosseni spelled out so clearly. "There
is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of
theft... When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife's right to a
husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's
right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness." I'm
really thankful for the opportunity to be here in Chile. I'm thankful for
having the time to read books for fun and to go on long walks with my
love.
I purchased my plane ticket almost three months
ago, and I ask myself every single day if I made the right choice. This trip
has been a huge investment of time and money, and it certainly was a big risk.
I did it even though my mom and grandmother strongly advised
against it. Most days, my answer is yes, I made the right choice. Some days, or
sometimes just for a few moments I get a feeling of guilt, a feeling that I
made a mistake. It creeps under my skin and into my stomach, where it clenches
hard until I can choke it down with the reasons I decided to make this trip.
Today, I had that creeping feeling. But in the midst of its grasp on my
stomach, I pulled it out of my body, out of my head. I let the feeling fall on
the forest floor and I crunched it between my sneakers and the pebbles. I know I made the right
choice. I chose love, I chose adventure, and I chose opportunity. There is
still risk, but nothing worth having is easily obtained. Now I'm sitting
next to the gas heater, absorbing the warmth and chasing my cold away with a
hot cup of tea. All I can feel is grateful. I'm grateful for the privilege to
take this risk, I'm grateful for the hospitality that I have been shown here,
I'm grateful for these sunny days. Always looking forward.


